I was so naive. I was so stupid.

No boy, or man, is worth your teenage years.

I will be back in New York shortly.

Alone, in New York. Without Jonny.

I hope we make it. But if we don't.
I'm not going to kill myself over it.

I'm thankful for what we have (had). 

okay so i was looking back on all that bullshit that i wrote when i was like 15 or whatever.. LOL omg. okay so lee turned out to be the biggest asshole that i've ever met, ended up cheating on me a shitload and lying to me like it was going out of style. i dated the guy who was the boyfriend of a girl he cheated on me with, and ended up being the hugest asshole in return to him, even though he treated me like gold. but it was all worth it because i'm with a man that makes me very happy, and i'm living with him after dating for about a year and a half, we're in tallahassee, and i couldn't be happier after all the shit that i've been through.

i now know what love is, and back then, while maybe what i had was real, what WE had wasn't.

I haven't written on here in a really long time! I am having a very good month, possibly one of the best. And I smell brownies right now :) Even though they are non-existant. It's almost time for regents and finals, and sooo there is two weeks left of school! I'm gonna try my hardest to get really good grades on my regents, especially my chem/math ones. I know I'm gonna get 100 on my Spanish regents. Haha. Parents aren't home and I am scared :[ but I am gonna go. BYE<33333333